im getting weaker day by day.
now - im down with a fever. it sucks!
but the weird thing is i'll be ok the next day.
so just pray hard dat im fine enuf to make it for UT.
ergh! i hate d feeling of sorethroat, coldsweats...
gonna eat panadol soon.

so i aready slept, i mean i wanted 2 have a long sleep but den i remembered dat i haven do RJ yet. shikes! so i wake up...unwillingly lah sia.
but why now? getting sick on a monday(the beginning of the week)
tat kinda sucks!

so tmr? to go to sch or not to go to sch?
argh!! UT UT UT UT UT!!!
cognitive... now i really hav to go to sch!
can i not do UT? im gonna fail anyway.
plans for tml-play bb with Sera, 'training'... can make it or not Zul?

im a girl who makes alot of trouble : not known by ppl.
k random-ness...

klah gdnite ppl. sweet dreams.
ps/whereareyou?

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helooo fellow earthlings.
okok ppl r asking me why im privating my blog...
err well, its time tat certain ppl have to stop knowing wat is going on in my life.
n to tis person who is freaking me out,"Stop it already! No more nonsense pls! Stop being a 'stalker'!"
i cant really reveal this person bcause it might be shocking. so dun ask me!
kk crap lah...

updates abt me = feeling suckeymonkey.
sleepy like mad... cant really make it for the ppt. err!
thru-out 2nd break, i felt like going hm. my head is spinning badly. feeling damn feverish. damn! hmmm. wat i nid right now is a 24hr sleep.
d idea of being sick = MC... NO SCHOOL!!
OKOK. stop it sia zul. time to get serious.
grades r dropping big time sia!



so beauty? inner beauty or outer beauty?
to me i tink inner beauty is awesome...

Labels: i know...ur beauty is just a lie...

psssst.
so tdy... went to work. but tis time i came damn late lah.
reason : woke up late, at 1315. didnt have d mood to go to work sia.
might as well i go MIA rite? hehe. chill at hm n spend time with ibu.
but then as usual---not enuf staff. so had to cum down...

itu pon org kate 'keje ni mcm pakcik kau nye. suke hati dtg time gini.'
tis is my ans to those who tinks like tis,'like wth? err at least i came to wrk n dun go MIA rite? i dun intend on cuming but papa jim calld ok! so wat the heck!'
righteous...

so work was okok. like ppl say...no government going on. hehe.

i checkd my pay. err. lets just say tat it enuf to last a mth.
coz i hav to pay alot of things. ergh!
bills, concession, owestuff... so yeaa.
i dun expect myself to b shopping tis mth.
time to start serious saving!
me n ibu came up with a plan.
so i really hope it works.

kk...
i gtg. ibu dah start bising.
'bsk kn skola! nnt kelam kabot nk siapkn baju sume!' haha...
mothers... will always be mothers no matter what.

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top list...
-pay bills
-extend concession n topup card.
-payback...
DONE!! SETTLE ALREADY...

after all tat is done...!
im seriously gonna get... ... after i settle everything aready.
-roxy parfume
-nike highcut shoes---(xiong! u muz follow me go buy those shoes, u said it b4)
SAVE!!...!!...!!...!!...!!

at least we talked. hehe. not exactly talk lah. blame it on my lateness.
tumpang him on the way back. LOL.
coolness + awesomeness = missinghimalot.

okayy so tdy work is ...........
err, i guess i juz woke up on d wrong side of my bed.
n XYZ juz step on d wrong foot of mine.
kk, i went to work feeling so smangat coz dah lame tk keje kn so mcm kanciong-p**** sikit lorh.
k masok hut, n got prepare the keychains n stuff. mcm biase.
n wat makes me wanna work more is tat everyone was there. i really mean it.
there were shafiq, helena, fira, jeyd n fad. its like good team uhh.
more smangat sia. so BWO was quite fun, selling here and there. fast pace.

so yarr.
but den....XYZ juz have to butt in everything rite? wanna noe everything rite?
ergh! why not tell d whole world? hah...! why not me spilling the beans abt u?
seriously! after wat tis XYZ talks abt me behind my back, it totally sucks!
tell me abt it. seriously!
klu bingit ngn aku, kau tkyah nk blg org lain (outsiders) abt the hal yg aku ade kn?! it makes me feel that u cn nvr be trusted abt such stuff.
looking back to the past, there's alot that u hav been doing n talking abt me tat u tink i dun noe, but too bad... i hav ears everywhere.
i dun bear grudges but when it cums to a point tat it really have to stop, u better stop.

i remember last time, u cried...in front of everyone after we had a fight. u sucker...making me look like d bad-guiltybitch.

its over lah, so i juz hav to move on rite.
its okayy, i juz got used to it sia.
its not surprising if u talks abt me again...

due 2 tat, d mood tat i hav juz perish immediately, no mood...
so took half day from work, n went hm to catch up with some sleep.
screw work rite?
ooh yeah. sleeeeeeeeeeeeep...... awesome-ness!


updates-we talked. happily. but due to half day, no more short talks.
haishh. mybe next time aites.
see ya soon...dreamer...
when am i working again? ouh yar, tmr...


life is such a bitch...
can i have a shorter life?
unhappy-ness.

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okayy. so here it goes...
3 words to describe school today-boring like crap.
didnt feel like going to school, so i took my own sweet time to go to school.
i took the 8.30am bus, which represents lateness.
to make my day worst-computing module today n change of group yarr.
so enter class, find for my new team... and there it was... Shamira, Shalini, Johnson(again)...haha.
den Yazid oso(for the very first time, im in the same team as him = finally)
so i started the day of being a NOOB. LOL.
seriously, aku mcm dongga sia dudok situ, tk tau nk buat aper, camne nk buat.
aku tnye2 org for help, but noone noes. damn it lorh.
so like normal-i was rotting in my seat. haha.
luckily Yazid taught me a few stuff. thanks lah!

oh yar--HAPPPPY BIIIIRTHDAY TO SHAMIRA!! may all ur dreams n wishes cum true kk..
she turn 18 tdy. n we celebrate her bdae twice.
well firstly with those extremely cute cupcakes dat her fren brought in.
extremely cute + extremely free = extremely delicious!
hehehe...
actually we all planned to do a small celebration 4 her n Calvin...
bought chocolate brownie n cheesecake 4 dem.
sang the birthday song!! n i took some crappy tergelap-dark pictures.
LOL. so they started our class tradition---feeding every single person in the class with the cake. hehe. coolios right?!


when is it my turn to be 17? haish....

anyway after school, there so many plans but i din noe which to go.
but since me, hidayah n nurez have been planning to watch movies 4 a long time.
we decided on flying to causeway point to watch "Don't mess with Zohan"...
what a movie sia!! haha.
awkward-ness + naked-ness +sex-trocity = M18...
hehe no lah. i will still watch it on dvds even if i cant watch in d cinemas.

so right now i have nothing to do. boredom...
tmr working...
kindaregretingdoingsomethingthatithoughtisagoodthingtodo...
lookatwhathappensnow... ... ... ...
whatever lah!

im still tinking of going bagpacking alone. haish... random-ness
syarfa: kau katne? dah mlm nie...
Zul: haha. Da otw. dlm bus 812. wori keper?
Syarfa: DUHH! dah lah CABUT SKOLA!
Zulaiha: Hehe. chill lah. Klu aku lari dari rumah. kau wori? Syg jgak kau kat aku ek. LOL.!
Syarfa: Dah dah. cukup. Kalau kau lari umah. Carik aku dulu.
Zulaiha: Hahah! Sayang kau! LOL. kk aku nk kat pai yer.
and this went on.... 8 years of frenship? hehe...

this guy is frm RP.
he's good to me, but sumtimes really annoying to me.
but kinda cute. LOL. yellow-ness...
he have tis strong, bad-boy look but actually he's like a coward. haha.
so who is he?? i wonder why im attracted to him... haha.

i wanna watch these movies...
-the incredible hulk
-hancock
-get smart
-prom nite
-meet dave

Labels: you better run before its too late.

let the pictures do the talking aites...

Labels: gdnite my fellow earthlings...

no worries at alll... i just felt free.....

the bitches that ilovesomuch. haha! crazy-ness...

hey hey!!



no reasons for me to go n not to got to school.........
can anyone just take a freaking sharo knife and slit my throat? haish...

ok right now im officially admitting that ihateschool.
u noe y?
coz im having green eyes on my cousin.
she's a dragonboater&nyp&her school doesnt suck as much as mine.
ok so im jealous. i can be a jealousbitch sumtimes.
she is so lucky... haish. if u noe her like i do, u will surely say she's a luckybitch.
well as for me, im stuck in a school where i have no idea y i joind in d first plc. yikes!
k slap me in the face right now pls!! ergh...

it sucks when u wake up every morning dreading to go to school bcause u noe dat tdy's topic is shitty.
waking up, knowing that u're a loser in school bcause u're noone. seeing my cousin like dat makes me feel like aloserbitchwhoalwayscomplainbut neverdo anything.
its true dat im just a girl-loser who is tallbutuseless. haish...
k dis is depressing lah.
im just a girl who goes to school everyday,hating her life.
Unlike some ppl, we do have to work to get $$ eventhough we're tired or lazy...

right now, im feeling really really bad. ihateschooltothemax.
how i wish i could just pack my bags n go bagpacking alone. travel everywhere alone.
do everything alone. whocaresabtmeanyway.

k whatever lah.
itsalluptoyou,itsneveraboutme...

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my brain is dead..... and now is my 2nd break.

Labels: paisey-ism....

Lamer might be not funny but at least they are trying their best to entertain people...
k im bored!

im still rotting here. u cant really help much coz im a corpse brought back to life. haha.
k lame! right now, teams r presenting. n im not showing any respect as im not listening to any.
im too sleepy. blah blah blah... k i will update more when im decaying.


hungry, bored, sleepy, disrespectful, lamer...are they feelings or just feelings that we make up?

firstly i would like to apologise to Hanafi for not turning up to watch him performing dikir barat.
i woke up late lah damn it! i didnt mean to stand you up, coz i noe u were expecting us to cum. so sorry. i mean it! and if there is a next time (u performing again) i promise to cum k.... so done!

ok today i woke up late! yeah! haha. woke up at 2.15pm coz i was damn tired due to d day b4, and i haven wake up tat late since forever. so i take my own sweet time to bathe and get dress. i do noe that i have to mit JeyD at 3pm, but i met her at 4plus pm. haha. blame it on Ancik for watching Cuci on tv and made me stay to watch it with him. (but the movie was nice lah!)

so we went to mit mike.s at the zoo. to take something frm him. but had to hide frm pmp n jimmy coz scared tat they c us n askd y we din cum to wrk n y we were there. we went a big round.... thru d security way, d restaurant. n 2 d hut when pmp was there. ishk! ran 2 splash amphitheatre n met ashri there. we talkd while JeyD shoot penguins. he talkd 2 me abt cameras n my mind went blank coz tat was d first time we communicate. LOL.

anyway after tat we went to AMK to take MRT 2 orchard. (btw JeyD slept in d bus. hehe. its d first time i c her slept in d bus. she lookd damn tired) so we headed 2 town 2 survey crumplers at wheelock plc. d shop was funkay... i mean d deco n stuff. d workers n bags. hehe. me n JeyD bought d 6millioncamera-crumpler tat cost $156. we were stressing ourselves whether to buy d bags or not. thanks to mike.s, we were able 2 buy it. so now my new loveable bag. hehe! RED!! JeyD chose olive green. basically we chose our own fav colors lah. we sort of made a fool of ourselves in d shop lah. haha. n someone caught my attention. lol.

me enjoying d feeling of having a new bag.
our new love...

oh yarr btw i sort of saved a guy frm falling bck. in d MRT.
kk tis is how it happen. u noe frm bradell to bishan, d sides of doors change. frm d left door to d right door. so tis tall chinese guy whom JeyD cant help staring (LOL) was leaning on the door tat was gna open soon. he was too absorbed with his ipod tat he din notice d door is opening. as 4 me, i was like looking at him-trying 2 tink fast. wat m i suppose 2 do? so without much hesitation, i quickly pulled his arm forward. his face was like "did tat just happened?" thank god. haha. JeyD was laughing! at me! coz she said my face was damn funny. tat guy gave a thankful look. den after tat i din even dare 2 look at face. idk y lah.

ate friedmarsbars n loving it...
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err. im putting down the list of things that i need to do/buy. for my own knowledge.
-roxy perfume
-Nike high-cut shoes
-dslr camera (canon/sony)
-hair cut---hair streaks
-colourless contact lenses
-d one n only jacket

-watch incredible hulk with the girls
-pay him back
-update my concession
-pay my hp bills
-SAVE THE REST!

well today's work was superb. hehz. it was ok ok only lah. i mean at least for BWO, we all made arnd $750. it was a great way to start the day. it was kinda kecoh lah, so many guests(potential customers). the whole plc was chaotic. but at least earned alot. i did giraffe with JeyD, i was a freaking long session that i have to go half way to do orangutan.
oh yat... so for orangutans, i flagged all 4 sessions with shafiq, JeyD, aizad lah sia. like crap siak. all of them, i had to shout loudly, announce to everyone abt the 'procedures' before going in.
so overall, i tink we got 105tickets sold. errgh! somehow, i love flagging at orangutan but when somthing happen, i seriously hate to flag. so basically tdy, i din touch any camera(as in take any shots) i was more of a flagger and salesman.

well, i made this tdy!! weee... like finally lah. actually, shafiq chose 4 me this giraffe coz of d fact tat im tall. im loving the badge. JeyD got orangutan. with the name Zahida (w/o th H).... LOL! like normal, i witness something, but couldnt say anything because i have no right. then did sales with PMP! shit him, he hated selling orang pics, so everytime customers come to us with orangutan tickets, he will push to me! argh!!! i crapped alot in d hut tdy.

btw we talked tdy. it is a miracle! haha. freakingly long time. it was as if there was a barrier between us last time. now, we got more open. talked openly. during the time 4-4.30pm, nth going on except sales, me n him crapped alot.
"kau tinggi, aku pendek. tapik biler time kite tngh baring-confirm same nye! tkde lain nye."
he said that again n again. we talked alot---and i mean alot.
i kinda treasured those times we talked... because it's not like everyday i talk to him. only on weekends if he is working.
he disturb me n i disturb me.
but to tink of it again, die sudah yg berpunye.
when it is not meant for me, then let it be lorh. i still have tat feeling in me. he is rude but he is different...

oryte my love, take care and n bye bye!

dearibu,

can i buy a camera? i mean for my own use. i noe u always say tat buying a dslr camera is not imptt now. only next year, Year 2. but how long can i wait? u said u pay half, while i pay half. n den after tat i'll pay u back slowly (the other half)... i can't wait tat long. i wanna get a camera that i can meddle arnd with. when i ask u nicely, u make a big fuss out of it. wtf...? stop it sia ibu. ayah, can u leave alone forever? seriously, u can just sit there and shut d f*** up sia. since when u care anything that got to do with ur children n studies? u weirdo! it is time u back off. i dun nid u anymore!!! seriously, i got nth to say anymore. it's like when i say smth little, u all make it like a big topic that is gna involve alot of ppl.
"it's not my time, but it doesn't mean that it's ur time now!!!"

love%hatezulaiha...

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Hey! I'm back from somewhere. Ok so let's start by saying this, "Probability sucks!"
Grrr... So went to school as normal, except without Nic (boring sia without her!!)... I really wasn't looking forward to school. I was just wasn't in the mood to study today. Odell was talking and talking and talking and more talking. But I was practically dozing off already. It's always his lesson that I hate. Ishk! But still I have to go to class coz I want my grade lah sey. I was rotting in my seat!!! I wanna leave!! Kill me someone! So it's like my body is there in class but my mind was roaming around. Thinking about everything.

My brain/devil was saying this,"Just go lah! Your team also leaving. Cabot sua, bukannye kau pay attention pon. Buang mase jek. Call JeyD and ShiD! Jalan ngn dorg sudah."
It was like that the whole time. So I made my decision! After planning everything lah. Called up everyone. Settle! So pack up!!
They all went to Johnson's house, I tagged along coz my thing only starts at 2plusplus. At his house, me and Elly couldn't do much. I want to but I can't (it is a sin right?)
So went just drank normal coke. And watch Johnson, Doro, Jaime, Shyan played mahjong.
Ancik taught me b4 but guess what I don't understand him at all lah. So throughout the game, Johnson taught me a few things. errr.... I don't really understand also sia, he was like speaking in alien language... I was just nodding only. LOL.

So I left the place at around 2.40. Met someone for lunch at Jack's place. The food was there wasn't really nice sia. (Btw I'm sick of western food!!!!! Seriously... I want local food. I've been eating western everyday for the whole week.) So we talked about everything lah, I knew alot of things that have been going on. I was so full sia! KK die belanje mah, so makan jelah.

Then after that we went different ways, thats when my real plans start. haha! Wait for JeyD at AMK like forever. So loooong sia. Aku boleh tumbuh misai sia... 0_o
So me and JeyD planned to go Marina Square coz we haven't gone there for so long and I also wanted to get new sandals. My havaianas-flash sandals dah haus, get slippery. So it means time to get new ones!!! ehehee.... We went to newurbanmale and bought the brazilianpialo red-black sandals(the ones that i've been waiting to get if something happen to flash)----my new love ones!
waiting for ShiD and AzzY to finish with their shooting.
For the meantime, me and JeyD catch up with some shit at Starbucks, looking through old pictures. haha...
Then later had late dinner with everyone. I was still full lah sia. We crapped alot and spit alot of scarcism on each other.
Train-ed back home. Kecoh sia dorg. They noisy like hell sia!! I wasn't paying much attention coz I was too sleepy. Very sleepy. But then they thought I couldn't hear them through my earphones. They tried to disturb me when I woke up. Hahaa. Suckers!
So we all went separate ways...

crappy faces... :D

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i like you but how do i tell you that i'm falling for you? u're attached and me, i'm just keeping quiet. looking at you from afar and also near. even when you are next to me, my heart feels different. how do i confess to u? maybe never. when u're happy, i'm happy. u r so different from me. we live in two worlds apart. n it also takes 2 hands to clap---for a relationship to last. for u, i think u will think that it is joke. anyways............... haish.....

but its okayy... im moving on...

Labels: take away his life......

Good Morning!! Hope all of you enjoy your day at work/school/or any other place k.
School's gonna start soon for the secondary people. So study hard lah Syarfa and Sera!
I'm rotting in school.
Ok ok... Well yesterday night, had movie marathon with Ancik. Kecoh lah.
We watched Definitely, Maybe. Until 1plus, I had to go to sleep coz ibu dah bising.
"Bskkn sekolah...!" da da da...?
Btw that movie is awesome. A very sweet romantic/heart-breaker movie. Nice movie overall...

KK i'll update more soon...

Labels: chick flicks

I go crazy when I'm hungry... Hey everyone!
My life is liveless... K lame. well today got maths UT. useless lah. I didn't want to come late like last time so I took cab with Nic to school. Reached school at 8.45am, k lah puas hati aku! I quickly scroll/run through the 6p-s but not working lah, nothing came into my mind.
Dumb-ness. Inside my brain, I'm seeing a blank screen. Haish... Too sleepy lah sia!
I did UT like anyhow lah, it was more guessing-game shit! More about Probability sia.
Hantam saja lah!!! I did it fast and stupidly. Dumb-ness again!

Okok... So today I was practically not paying attention in class. LOL. Had a change of groups again. So this time I was with Angela, Ryan, Yilin. Hmm... No comments uh.
Slack-ness... Well actually, I brought this dvd to school, NEVER BACK DOWN.
Coolioo... I was excited to watch it lah. hehe. So during the break, my face was like stuck to the screen. So KHUSYUK sia. I concentrate on the movie! Damn nice lah!!
Movie recommended by Zul.

I watched the movie on-off lah, coz busy doing ppt. Grrrrrrrr!
Spoiling uhh!! Anyway, my team presented first and end first so I took the opportunity to continue my movie. Didn't really listen to other teams' ppt. LOL. Happily watching... Making all those scaryy-noise, then Ryan also join. He said the movie was awesome lah. haha. So it's like both of us were so into the movie like we were in it...
How I wish I can fight like them..! K Zul dream on lah!!?
So after school, we went to play basketball. Hmmm... Am I supposed to say I enjoy it? Well yeah. It was fun and cool. I haven't stepped on the basketball court since olevels. The last time I played bb was with Sera and the guys... So long time ago sia. Kk so just now, I kinda suck at most of the things. Shooting? Defending?
I need to play more lah...

Klah. See you all around.
XOXO Zul-Aiha....

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i'm getting used to strangers talking to me.
ytdy, my bro gf talkd to me. i don even noe who d hell she was until she shameless-proudly announce that she is my bro gf. watever! not as if she's married to him or smth.
i wan her to just shut up n ignore me!! damn it. she talkd to me as if she've known me 4 yrs.
tdy in d MRT some old man who talks diff language talkd to me. he was practically boasting abt himself. as 4 me, i ws just shaking n nodding my head frm amk to yishun. tat ws hw long he ws talking to me.
then later at d interchange, a guy(quite cute) randomly talkd 2 me abt his fren. his fren ws dancing to a retro song, n he ws saying,"nonsense right he?" lol. i ignored him politely, n shahida laughd so loud.
as for me, i was like hey every strangers here, just cum up 2 me n talk ok! coz it seems like strangers talk nonsense to me.

well aniwae, tdy i had GDO(people call dem girls day out) lol.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MALAH!!! 17th GOING ON 70 soon. hehe. love you always!
with nina, izyan, shid, jeyd, tyra, shahida, n malah(bdae girl)!!!!
we all planned to go dinner together n sort of surprise mal n jeyd. but den somehow we couldn't find a nice plc to eat n a cake for them. tat kinda sux!
frustrated, we went to Breeks.
eat eat eat. me order baked seafood rice. eeeeeeeeee. the smell was damn tempting but when i started digging in, it tasted do yucky sticky. i got muak and wanted to puke sia. disgusting taste on my tongue. worst thing is i couldn't keep the food down bcause there wasn't enuf water.
ahhhhhh......
ok ok anuf abt tat. regretting on ordering that coz it kinda wasted my money. later on we ordered 'massive attack' as a "bdae cake" for the gals. hehe. we couldn't find a better one arnd. everyone shared it! it was like cool lah. so delicious! awesome-ness.
since i am an icecream freak, i orderd ice cream crumble. hehee... 4 myself. lol. nolah actually shared it everyone. quite nice! but too sweet. diabetes sia later.
anyway i enjoyd ,yslef alot. reunion with the lovelies.
love them alot!!!.....

fought with xiong tdy. realli mad at him!

Labels: live life to the fullest...

Can you look at me and say that I am beautiful (evethough I'm not)?

those times....... looking back...........
people change.

Labels: sick of this....

Labels: a flashy day...

i'm so damn lost...

cool-ness.
sad-ness.
awesome-ness.
hate-ness.
more-ness.

Labels: happy-ness...

the hut used to be a FUN place, where the people there were damn awesome. no worrying at all. that place used to be serenity. well all good things come to an end when one by one starts disappearing.

okay. today? hmm. don't want to say much k. alot of things to show but not say. FUN. thats all i'm going to say. went to eat japanese food, alot of them. cool-ness. so many weird food that i've seen in the tv but never taste before. so i was sort of jakunese. hehe.
why do i love food? i seriously have no answer for that sia. once i start, nobody can stop me. haha! even if people control my appetite, i will have my ways in sneaking food.
cunning-ness.

I LOVE FOOD!!!
great-ness... ... ...
i can spend alot just on food.

well i think i need to start doing something to my fats. its showing aready. hehe!
0_o"

jump jump jump...!
splashooooo... ... ... ... ...
had a great time.
fun-ness!

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hey everyone.
welcome back to my life.
it's just another place where i start saying that i hate everything.
ok ok. tell me to shut up ok!

well i want to say today is totally what i have been keeping to myself all the months i have been working.
let me start this off with a FARK YOU!!!!
argh.
hmm why did i say that?
well i just want to let it out once and for all.
this is something i have been keeping lah.
i dont understand why some people can stand/bear with it when they are there everyday.
while me? im seldom there.
a few days and disappearance for me...
you all are new.

what the fark are you complaining about?
what do you know about the hut?
you only hear this from people mouth which are full of shit right?
what farking rights do you have?
how come i dont hear from certain people complaining?
do you know why we are in the hut while you are at the entrance?

i guess you guys dont really know the farking answer right?!
ergh.
this is frustrating that you all think that the hut is farking relaxing.
give me reasons for this damn assumption please.
each time you see more new people, you think you are a big fark just because you are already 'seniors'.
damn you lah!
please dont be a self-claimer.
do you know how long it takes for my batch of people to be called seniors?
3-4 months!!!
and for you, you think being in the job for 4-5 days, you can act like big fark here.
well, you have thought wrong my friends!
"oh why can they go to the hut? i came into this job earlier than them."
ouh shut up!!

if the manager/team leader says that we are in the hut, what am i suppose to do?
rebel? i know you all will say NOT FAIR, or whatever shit it is.
you dont know what really is going on in the hut.
this is called behind-the-farking-scenes!
what you always hear/see/experience is different.
YOU say that inside is relaxing, do you know why?
i will tell you why, this is because you dont know anything in the hut. you cannot do anything because you dont know. when we tell you to learn, you say dont want. you say it is boring and you push it to someone else. you just want to do the fun things. do you know that we have to start from scratch? i guess you dont! ok ok, of course you will say that it is fun because you are not the one doing the hard stuff. you are never going sales, you are never shooting elephant/sealion/orangutan. you only follow people's butt. we are doing most of the work. what about you?

for outside-ness, please dont keep asking why are we in the hut, when is it your turn to go into the hut, etc.
ergh! pffftt.
i know you all are tired, then you think we not tired also? we also rush here and there. got resting time and everything, what you all? smoking breaks(arent that resting time too?)?
fark it lah!!!

all the black faces that i have to face.
im trying hard not to care what people think/say about me.
ignoring all the signs of hatred/unfairness.
making fake smiles to them when im trying to stop myself from breaking down or shout at their ears at the top of my lungs.
please kill me?!!

im so sorry about being damn rude here. im just letting it go. out and about!
dont take it too hard.
mad-ness!!

i know i am noone in this job. just a part-timer who comes to work as and when i want
if you are aware of who you are, then my mission is complete.
this is not to the yellow-ness.
jangan terasa.

how i wish you would understand how i feel...
im tired, maybe very tired.
thinking about alot of things that have been going on around me.
pffft.
am i wrong to think what i am thinking right now?
this kinda suck!
is this what the seniors felt when we just join? i wonder...
maybe being too active in this place doesn't really help, because people do think differently.

im moving... might be moving.
not sure where.
now i just wan to make sure that my account have the right amount! but how...?


ibu...
can you let me go?
i wanna go far, somewhere very far and not come back even if there's school or work to go.
go to a place where noone knows my name, where i cant be found.
disappear??
alone.......
no more studies! no more job... no more boss?
it's just me, myself and i.
how i wish lah!!! it will never happen.

FAT? what is fat? is chubby counted as fat?
kk im talking nonsense. sorry...
being fat is very disturbing you know.
sometimes i feel that it is my problem tat i m fat. it is so none of your business!!!



dear ibu,
can i say something to you? why are always worried about me? is it because of my disability?
please don't. it is killing me. too much of you worrying about me is just making you tired. i don't want you to think about it anymore ok. this is just stupid. please don't think of the possibilities that can chage the fact about me. i don't really want to be a 'burden'. sometimes i know it is too much to handle. with everything on your mind, i sometimes wish its better you didn't know about it. how i wish i can tell you face to face...? hmm.

love,
your daughter.

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listen up!!!
W34M, i am thinking of planning on having an outing to the zoo/nite safari.
reason----i haven explore the zoo yet and i want to do it with the class...
timing will be from 9am-10pm.
im not so sure if the timing is cnfirm(maybe too early, maybe too late), its just the estimation.

i am not so sure on what day to go.
most prob on friday the 13th. (cool date right?)
the price of the tickets----i'm not so sure how much the tickets can cost. but what i know is i can discount price for everyone. estimate arnd $15 like that.

please let me know if you want to go or not.
just hit me back as soon as possible.
just make another outing for those who wasn't able to join us on the sentosa day.
if u cant make it or dun wan to go, den its ok...
kkkk.
reply asap!

thanks.

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1. Do you have a wide group of friends?

more pictures of the SENTOSA DAY will be posted soon. so just chill back kk.....

ps : dun keep on complaining lah, u farking old person!! somehow i just lost interest in listening to ur orders. dun appreciate this dun appreciate tat. u horny flirty bastard. now i noe ur true ugly colors. ishk....! shld hav listen to the guys. u r juz one freaking pcs of ****!!!! pamper konon. pigi tua! ergh!!!!! how i wish i dun wrk wit u... juz take a few steps away frm me n nvr cum near me again....! u belardy chibai-ish person!!!!

-----i'm just venting my long-kept anger... if u noe who im refering to, then its a good thing! pfffttt. sorry abt tat.

XOXO zzzzzZZZZZUuullllLLLL....

Labels: rest well everyone... its another great day ahead...

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