Sunday, June 8, 2008
hey everyone.
welcome back to my life.
it's just another place where i start saying that i hate everything.
ok ok. tell me to shut up ok!
well i want to say today is totally what i have been keeping to myself all the months i have been working.
let me start this off with a FARK YOU!!!!
argh.
hmm why did i say that?
well i just want to let it out once and for all.
this is something i have been keeping lah.
i dont understand why some people can stand/bear with it when they are there everyday.
while me? im seldom there.
a few days and disappearance for me...
you all are new.
what the fark are you complaining about?
what do you know about the hut?
you only hear this from people mouth which are full of shit right?
what farking rights do you have?
how come i dont hear from certain people complaining?
do you know why we are in the hut while you are at the entrance?
i guess you guys dont really know the farking answer right?!
ergh.
this is frustrating that you all think that the hut is farking relaxing.
give me reasons for this damn assumption please.
each time you see more new people, you think you are a big fark just because you are already 'seniors'.
damn you lah!
please dont be a self-claimer.
do you know how long it takes for my batch of people to be called seniors?
3-4 months!!!
and for you, you think being in the job for 4-5 days, you can act like big fark here.
well, you have thought wrong my friends!
"oh why can they go to the hut? i came into this job earlier than them."
ouh shut up!!
if the manager/team leader says that we are in the hut, what am i suppose to do?
rebel? i know you all will say NOT FAIR, or whatever shit it is.
you dont know what really is going on in the hut.
this is called behind-the-farking-scenes!
what you always hear/see/experience is different.
YOU say that inside is relaxing, do you know why?
i will tell you why, this is because you dont know anything in the hut. you cannot do anything because you dont know. when we tell you to learn, you say dont want. you say it is boring and you push it to someone else. you just want to do the fun things. do you know that we have to start from scratch? i guess you dont! ok ok, of course you will say that it is fun because you are not the one doing the hard stuff. you are never going sales, you are never shooting elephant/sealion/orangutan. you only follow people's butt. we are doing most of the work. what about you?
for outside-ness, please dont keep asking why are we in the hut, when is it your turn to go into the hut, etc.
ergh! pffftt.
i know you all are tired, then you think we not tired also? we also rush here and there. got resting time and everything, what you all? smoking breaks(arent that resting time too?)?
fark it lah!!!
all the black faces that i have to face.
im trying hard not to care what people think/say about me.
ignoring all the signs of hatred/unfairness.
making fake smiles to them when im trying to stop myself from breaking down or shout at their ears at the top of my lungs.
please kill me?!!
im so sorry about being damn rude here. im just letting it go. out and about!
dont take it too hard.
mad-ness!!
i know i am noone in this job. just a part-timer who comes to work as and when i want
if you are aware of who you are, then my mission is complete.
this is not to the yellow-ness.
jangan terasa.
welcome back to my life.
it's just another place where i start saying that i hate everything.
ok ok. tell me to shut up ok!
well i want to say today is totally what i have been keeping to myself all the months i have been working.
let me start this off with a FARK YOU!!!!
argh.
hmm why did i say that?
well i just want to let it out once and for all.
this is something i have been keeping lah.
i dont understand why some people can stand/bear with it when they are there everyday.
while me? im seldom there.
a few days and disappearance for me...
you all are new.
what the fark are you complaining about?
what do you know about the hut?
you only hear this from people mouth which are full of shit right?
what farking rights do you have?
how come i dont hear from certain people complaining?
do you know why we are in the hut while you are at the entrance?
i guess you guys dont really know the farking answer right?!
ergh.
this is frustrating that you all think that the hut is farking relaxing.
give me reasons for this damn assumption please.
each time you see more new people, you think you are a big fark just because you are already 'seniors'.
damn you lah!
please dont be a self-claimer.
do you know how long it takes for my batch of people to be called seniors?
3-4 months!!!
and for you, you think being in the job for 4-5 days, you can act like big fark here.
well, you have thought wrong my friends!
"oh why can they go to the hut? i came into this job earlier than them."
ouh shut up!!
if the manager/team leader says that we are in the hut, what am i suppose to do?
rebel? i know you all will say NOT FAIR, or whatever shit it is.
you dont know what really is going on in the hut.
this is called behind-the-farking-scenes!
what you always hear/see/experience is different.
YOU say that inside is relaxing, do you know why?
i will tell you why, this is because you dont know anything in the hut. you cannot do anything because you dont know. when we tell you to learn, you say dont want. you say it is boring and you push it to someone else. you just want to do the fun things. do you know that we have to start from scratch? i guess you dont! ok ok, of course you will say that it is fun because you are not the one doing the hard stuff. you are never going sales, you are never shooting elephant/sealion/orangutan. you only follow people's butt. we are doing most of the work. what about you?
for outside-ness, please dont keep asking why are we in the hut, when is it your turn to go into the hut, etc.
ergh! pffftt.
i know you all are tired, then you think we not tired also? we also rush here and there. got resting time and everything, what you all? smoking breaks(arent that resting time too?)?
fark it lah!!!
all the black faces that i have to face.
im trying hard not to care what people think/say about me.
ignoring all the signs of hatred/unfairness.
making fake smiles to them when im trying to stop myself from breaking down or shout at their ears at the top of my lungs.
please kill me?!!
im so sorry about being damn rude here. im just letting it go. out and about!
dont take it too hard.
mad-ness!!
i know i am noone in this job. just a part-timer who comes to work as and when i want
if you are aware of who you are, then my mission is complete.
this is not to the yellow-ness.
jangan terasa.
what we could have been, 10:47 PM.
