PS/saying you missed us? why making plans not telling us... hmmm... andandand im in love with pandas!! and my FATGANG. :D

Labels: wondering why...

a very good morning to everyone.

dream on lah ZUL!!? hehe. i did that when i was totally bored and kept looking at cars. sometimes when you walk down the roads in Orchard or so, you will see all these nice cars. and women are driving them. haah... when is it my turn? a freaking 2 years!!!!!

PS/buying one of them in 10 years time. ahahahahah.

Labels: im lost...

hey people. seriously i haven't been updating because i have nothing to say about my life, nothing to rant about... absolutely NOTHING!!
yeah. its meaningless sometimes.

coz, sometimes when you wake up the next day, you always look forward to that day.
but as for me?
i don't know why...
but i just don't look forward to my new day.
i just wish i could continue sleeping and never wake up.

somehow at some point of time, i will stop doing everything and think to myself, "What do i really want? What am i doing right now?"
its hurting my brain when i start thinking about it.

and at some point, i just wish i could fastforward the time... and stop at the time when i'm all grown up and working my ass out.
Photo/Journalist?

well right now i'm just running my life everyday-stressing about my grades, thinking who to offend next, making sure that i don't worry my parents especially ibu and many more that i don't really want to say here.

what am i living for?
who am i living for?

i have no idea...

i can't decide what i want to do, what i want.
this or that? here or there?

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?!!!??!!!

i have a list of things to do but something is pulling me back. what is it?
confidence? money? family? school? friends? or is it just me. myself and i??


PS/im not perfect at all...

Labels: unlike you...

good morning everyone.
welcome to my liveless life.

k seriously i have no idea what to update/talk about.
coz my life have been veryvery boring.
tell me about it right?

i don't do much this whole week, because i don't go anywhere except for going home straight after school. this is because of my damn flu and cough.
ergh!
in addition, i also like have no mood to go anywhere. no money, no talk.
if want to go out, need money.
and i've been saving up...

well tell me what i should buy? which one is more worthy?
orangeblack highcut Nike shoes....?
Gladiators...?
i need advises!!
if i ask ibu, she's gonna tell me,"jangan buang duit. pakai aper yg ader."
its kinda true lah. its just something that i stepped on everyday.
what would you think if i have all this...

• 2 Kappa shoes
• 2 Crocs
• 2 Havainnas sandals
• 1 Umbro shoe
• 1 Clarks wedges
• 1 Adidas slippers
• 1 American Eagle pumps
• 1 Converse highcut shoes

so yeah... scream at me please!!

and and and btw im gonna do something that people is not gonna belive me doing it at all.
it's impossible!!

PS/nasib baik aku belajar bahasa cina, most of them communicate using that. errrrrr....

fuck sick virus!
fuck flu virus!
fuck all the virus in the world!
argh!!!!
its killing me lah sia...!

okay. all i want right now is to jump onto my bed and get alot of rest... and maybe watch some taiwan dramas also. how i wish i could do that. ergh!!

now im wearing ethnic clothes. Chinese. racial harmony mah. kinda weird coz everyone was looking at me when i was on the bus. "what?! never see people wearing chinese top before is it?!" ergh!

pimples are the most irritating 'thing'! im having a pimple breakout this week and it sucks!
it hurts.
it is red.
it leaves marks behind.
and and and it is BIG!!!
everyone, please agree with me that PIMPLES is never a nice thing to have...!

so yeah. mitting the babes later on. ouhh i miss those 'bitches' so much... myfatbitchgang.
cant wait to see you all.


updates on my fever
-nomore temperature
-nose is stuck as if there's a cork there
-throat is feeling a lot better... strepsils do help yar!


XOXO/zulaihabteosman aka juleha...

PS/where were you when i needed you? when you look me in the eyes...

Labels: will you take me somewhere far?

An Nyong Ha Se Yo?

alright, so today was my first Korean lesson at CC with Ancik.
eventhough i seriously had no mood to go(im still having fever), i pulled myself out of bed, bathe and get dressed asap. ergh...!

so yeah, reached that CC, me and Ancik were totally lost lah, so walk here, walk there. until this old lady called us to come in. when we reached the class was extremely small, the aircon was like ****---for a person who is still sick, i was perspiring like mad. sit separate tables from Ancik, but he's still behind me. waited for everyone to arrive which took about 10 mins or so. well i took my time reading the file&ws she gave. i mean the teacher lah. btw she got a lot names. in english, korean, chinese. coolios.

ok, we started off by introducing ourselves-kinda lame. then we start with the ws. so weird... i have to pronounce those words. like your tongue have to roll here and there.
AND AND AND i now know how to write my name in KOREAN. heheh! coolioss.
have hw to do--due date by next sunday. haaah...

updates on my fever---temperature gone down, nose still dripping, throat is soreNOT. haha. k lame.

what am i doing with my life? hmmm... i seriously have no mood to go to work anymore... i dont feel like going out anymore. i feel like cooping myself in the house. i want to buy a camera so i can have a real life but i aint got enough money. im wasting my time on online movies and dramas. i, not eating not because of diet or other shit, but i have no appetite-my throat feels like kena shut.

ok im lost...
i seriously dont know what i want in my life.
this is a total chaos.

• Quiting InVogue
• Getting myself better
• Finding a new job
• Go to school and crap there...

Alright people... Sarang Hae Yo!

good morning.
woke up feeling sick.
"ibu, leha tak sedap badan uh... demam."
then ibu came in and touch my forehead. panas!
"pergi jelah sekolah, kalau tak nak naik bus, ibu kasik duit taxi..."
i was like don't want lah, waste money only... like that don't need go school lah.

ergh! my immune system is failing me. getting sick again in less than a month. that sucks!

i just came back from the doctor. sucks! normal stuff, cough flu flamm headache sorethroat.

so right now i have nothing to do. si beh xian. im laying on my bed, trying to get some rest. ok, im having a FEVER lah!! its not fun, its crap. all the medicine. eeeek! but then, come to think of it, i don't really have to go to school.well i do have evidence that im really sick and not cabotting. ahahah. thats my mc. and me laying on the damn bed. i can't even on the fan to full blast cause ibu suruh peluh.

i'll update more when i wake up kk. im just wordless at the moment.....................

hey im back. timecheck 11.06pm. just finish watching ghost whisperer. so yeah, today i had to pull myself out of bed just to go for chinese tuition. like i said before im having a FEVER. ergh! actually not much of a go lah, the tutor came to my house. i was bathing when she came... luckily she was a she... haha. ok nevermind if you dont get me there.

so me and ibu learned about some greetings, number. the pronounciation was like whoa! i got the hang of it pretty quick because ive been learningtalking chinese since primary school. only that i didnt get a chance to show it out lah. so just now was fun. me and ibu communicate in chinese. alienated world. ibu was taking it slow&steady. and me, the tutor said i can go to the advance one. hehe.

ouh i forgot for a moment what i learn sia. ok it took me minutes to refresh back. ok if im speaking chinese with you, dont be shock. im just learning my way through it slowly. and if im kinda annoying at times, bear with me, im practicing only. i just hope i can speak it fluently. hahahahaha.

so there goes my first chinese tuition. coming up next is.... KOREAN lessons on sunday. weeee! for that one, im really excited! ahahaha.

updates on my fever... its getting worst. eating medicine is bullshit!!! my nose is dripping like a waterpipe. my throat hurts to the max. and where has my appetite gone to? i mean seriously. my appetite just went MIA. ergh! im hungry but i cant eat. i'll just vomit everything out. and i still cant use the fan when i sleep. ibu will switch it off when im aready in my lala land. and me, i will wake up in my sweatbath. that is sooooo uncooool!!!

tomorrow school. got that invoguetrainingthingy. had to go. coz they teachinggiving tipstechnics on how to take picturesposes. errrgghhhhh.

pfffftt!!! so kill me my sleep right now. alright i gotta go prepare for my murderer to come by. ahahaha. goodnites lovelies...

PS/istilldoloveyou...

Labels: being exposed is never a good thing...

hey.
got a new member in my family right now. and ibu can't seem to let go of her. my other members are starting to get jealous. haha. everyone is running away from each other, throwing tantrums, not eating-shitting-drinking-playing. only sleeping.

guess what's the new family member name is YUN!!
i seriously have no idea why ibu calls her that.
i think it reminds her of JUN(the one who died in March) .
i don't you guys understand what i'm talking about right? its all about CATS lah dumbo!

right now i have 4 cats
-Montel (the fat-lovable-fierce garfield wannabe)

-Tini (the most shy-skinny-pampered by ibu alot) -Comot (the playful-daredevil wannabe) lastly... -Yun (the fattest of them all, noisy)
before that we have Jun (the disabled one who can't walk-ibu loved her the most)
all of them are persian cats. have been with us for years.

so yeah, i was awaken by "ade Giant Hitam kat bilik leha"
and i was like what the hell?? who sia?
put on my specs, only to see a freaky blackgolden cat bigger than Montel.
her face is flatugly but extremely cute lah.
her fur was in a mess, still is lah.
ibu wanted to cut them, but Yun was too noisy.


and and and, i'm having my first Chinese tuition tomorrow.
and first Korean lesson on Sunday.
bishhhh!! a part of me is excited but scary also...

ok so today took 960bus to bugis with Hidayah, Nurez, Shamira, Yazid, Vina and Trena. the freakingly long bus ride with uncomfortable seat. warm bus (but at least got a little aircon). foul sharp smell. ergh! so yeah. it was a 45mins bus ride from woodlands to bugis. so long sia. i slept and wakeup and slept and wakeup time and again but still havent reached yet. burrr!

and guess what, yazid was like superduper sleepytired, i was his cushion just now since i was sitting beside him. "kalau boleh aku nak sandar kat kau uh?" he said that. and since he looked pretty damn tired, i let him lah. so he was like jerking here and there. mengigau rabak sia die. evidence below. he slept so soundly. look at that picture! he was enjoying his sleep but me? i was suffering in my seat because he was heavy. hahahahh. k jangan marah yar. my backbone hurt lah sey.

ok. so we went for dinner at BK and off we went to bugis street to look for clothes for that photoshooting. i was excitingly looking for gladiators there, but then same results... "there's no size, only 39-40." hey its okay! i've gotten used to all these remarks after all these years. my size is like 42-44 lah sia. nevermind lah, i'll just go and find them at other place with kakyana this saturday.

i need to find these stuff for that summer theme. 4th August the final date. our photoshooting. yikes! plannings on what to wear-gladiators with a long dress with beads necklace and bright earrings. i think so lah.

shamira was hot lah! she wore that vintage green dress. it fits her prefectly. i wish i have a body like hers... tehehehehe. so yeah. she looks awesome in them, should have taken picture lah. ergh! there were so many choices for her. couldn't decide right now because there so many other types out there mah.

so yeah, trainned back home with vina and shamira. vina was sleepingstanding. haha. cute lah she. shamira and me were sitting down on the floor, talking about alot of things.

dear shamira,

hey don't worry aites, u have us... the girls from w34m kkk! alot of weird experience u have but cerita lame. so yeah. don;t think too much k. take care.

zulaihabteosman

alright i need to sleep now. or else i have to bang my head again tomorrow. yikes!

PS/ANTM is still awesome. plussizemodels? hmmm. can i be one?

Labels: dreaming again...

what we could have been, 9:30 AM.

Labels: hating these grades...

Friend: calls your parents by Mr. and Mrs.
Best friend: calls your parents dad and mom.

Friend: has never seen you cry
Best Friend: has always had the best shoulder to cry on

Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: opens the fridge and makes herself at home

Friend: asks you to write down your number.
Best friend : they ask you for their number ( cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back
Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff

Friend: only knows a few things about you
Best friend: could write a biography on your life

Friend: will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
Best friend: will always go with you

True best friend right? They are sisters to you.
The Sisterhood Of Travelling Pants A movie a bestest friends/sisters.
It shows and tell everything.
Their strong beliefs, love and care for each other.
4 teen girls became best friends even before they were born. They were there for each other no matter what happens.
Death of a mother. Fights and Arguements. Crushed love. Everything. They just love each other. Fly all over the country when they are need each other's company.

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okay, so lately i've been watching online movies.
-the notebook
-sydney white
-the sisterhood of travelling pants
-you got served

well there's more to come lah...
all these movies are so awesome.

Labels: movie mania

more updates... ... ...

heyo...
ok so school was normal. did VB again... bleah! but i kinda getting interested in it. my team today makes me semangat to do VB. especially seeing Yazid concentrating on the VB program, it makes me want to do more you see... so yeah. i went through it with the help of everyone lah. thankiu. eventhough during class presentation, i felt alseep, i tried to act as if i was paying attention. it was a nice sleeeeeeeeeeep. haha.

my class had plans also-go newton, but then i promised the others first... so sorry lah. next time kkk...

so after school, had plans with fiera, shid n jeyd. we've been plainning this since last week lah. to go holland village, jalanjalan. so many angmohs. haha. we all lookd like foreigners-with the bags, gals going bagpacking. fiera lookd like the tourguide. ahahaha. went to eat at BK again. errr... went roaming around to find for my fashionclothes. but then, most of the shops were closed.
so yea.....

btw we saw this awesome sunset sia when we left the mrt station. it was so beautiful!!! with reddish and orangish shades of pale yellow.
shid and jeyd regretted not bringing their cameras. haha....


so yea, went back at 9.15pm like that. me slept inside the bus... perkara biasa sahaja.
they went to my blk there to take something from me.
so it took advantage of it and brought Montel together with the bag.
shid was like "ah! zul cute nye. gemok nye. furry nye. garang nye!"
jeyd was like "ah zul! takmo dekat ngan aku! ahahaha!"
---Montel gets the FAME for awhile. scarycat!!

---lend shid my crumpler bag, MAKE SURE YOU LOOK AFTER IT PROPERLY HOR!!!

ok lah. i gtg.
got work tomorrow. want to go or not? hmmm...

PS/Montel eats durian just now. And yarr... might be joining SILAT with Shamira, Xiong and Nurez... I think so lah.....


replies...
shid - dreams do come true, in your imaginary world lah!
shid + shamira + fad +syarfa + sera - korean language? hehe. i hope it is easier and fun than it seems. yeap! of course i will teach u all some korean language. all the vulgar words want? haha. i'll try my best lah... wish me luck in this new 'world'!
shamira - all UTs are never fun/worth it to study... burrrrr!!!
syarfa - lau nk join? kau tunggu lamelame. habiskan olevels kau dulu cik kak...!

Labels: buena vista

time --- 8.23pm
listening to --- backstreet boys = quit playing games with my heart.
plans --- do RJ, watch chinese drama and ANTM.
mood of the day = none other than BORED

module of the day = basic sciences
obviously you all don't have to ask how the day went...
it always sucks for science module. no matter what it still do suck.
today's topic was all about fomulas for chemistry...
(the only thing i know when i finished olevels was that nomore science, english, maths)
but then........ shikes!!! luckily my course doesn't need all these.
so zul, just bear with it for a few more months!!!

so after school, met ibu at northpoint coz she wants to do something.
so i guess now every thursday is the motherdaughter dayout lah... hmm...
we went to eat first at BK (i will never get bored of the food there!)
after that she went to queue to withdraw money while me.....
i was browsing through the clthes at this fashion.
and and and and something attracted me!!!
that genie-design pants!!
its awesome! kembang dibawah, ketat diatas (not that ketat lah)
but still it is NICE! i seriously want to buy it... wait for next pay lah sia.

ehk talking about fashion right..?
i have this invogue thing coming up in August.
something like photoshoot.
Themes --- Vintage, Glamorous, Summer...
as for me, i seriously have no idea what to choose, what to do and how to do it.
so people! i need everyone help in this situation!!!
im thinking of doing Vintage bcoz i know what kind of clothes is suitable for it already.

by the way, guess what ibu did...
she signed me up for Chinese&Korean lessons.
errr..... am i suppose to i appreciate that thought...?
i mean i do appreciate her kindness but learning those 2 languages every week(startin from next week) is kinda scary...
Korean---Every Sunday 3pm-4.30pm (with Ancik at CC)
Chinese---Every Friday 7.30pm-9pm (with Ibu at home)

so from now on, i can't work fully on Sunday-halfday will do...after that must go for lesson.
this is scary... me speaking foreign languages to you... haha.
but come to think of it, its kinda cool... scolding someone in that language without them understanding me... hehehe...
*devilish look*

plans for tomorrow, go out the babes. holland village right??

ohkayyy... gtg.
RJ is waiting for me....


PS/Kak Yana! i seriously need ur help in finding such clothes.

Labels: photoshooting seems fun...

just something extra. seriously got nothing to do so.....

CAPRICORN (Dec 22 - Jan 19)

• The Go-GetterPatient and wise.
• Practical and rigid.
• Ambitious.
• Humorous and funny.
• Can be a bit shy and reserved.
• Often pessimistic.
• Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly at times.
• Likes competition.
• Get what they Want.

UT is such a bitch! ergh. irritatingly annoying... Computing UT, not worth study at all. NOT WORTH AT ALL!!! ishk. Once i open the UT, everything turns so foreign to me. Its like everything were in alien language. BISH!?!

Labels: so alienated...

Friend: calls your parents by Mr. and Mrs.
Best friend: calls your parents dad and mom.

Friend: has never seen you cry
Best Friend: has always had the best shoulder to cry on

Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: opens the fridge and makes herself at home


Friend: asks you to write down your number.

Best friend : they ask you for their number ( cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back
Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff

Friend: only knows a few things about you
Best friend: could write a biography on your life

Friend: will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
Best friend: will always go with you



True best friend rite? They are sisters to you.



The Sisterhood Of Travelling Pants

A movie a bestest friends/sisters. Their strong beliefs, love and care for each other.
4 teen girls became best friends even before they were born. They were there for each other no matter what happens. Death of a mother. Fights and Arguements. Crushed love. Everything. They just love each other.

Fly all over the country when they are need each other's company.



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okay, so lately i've been watching online movies.
-the notebook
-sydney white
-the sisterhood of travelling pants

well there's moreto come lah...
all these movies are so awesome.

guess wat my name is about...

Z = You're always fighting with someone.
U = You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
L = Love is something you deeply believe in.
A = You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
I = You are always smiling and making others smile.
H = You are not judgmental.
A = You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.

Labels: shiok sendiri mah?

Dear Siti Saiyidah Binte Amin,

Labels: love is in the air.

N N N me n saras had an exchange lah. hehe. brownies with dat elephanthair-bracelet.

Labels: love brownies of mine.

hello. timecheck-12.27am.





as for me(a freaking beginner) was embarrassing myself there. haha. i totally dun noe how to play. johnson taught me d position n etc. so i kinda get the hang of it lah...i guess so.

had supper at BK after tat. ooh yeah! haah. then everyone went-rushed back. take the MRT. coz they all scared in case missed the last train.

as for me, im dead beat. so tired! i wanted to sleep in the train but got company. i am so so SLEEPY. wat more, tml working. ergh! luckily, i don nid to bake brownies for tml. haha. can take a rest yarr.

oryte. gotta go sleeeeeeep now. haha.

rest in peace my dear one.

PS/gerek jgak kuar with them. at least ade die jgak. haha. cute-ness. but it kinda suck because biler kite together sorg kt MRT, tkde topic nk bbual. Silence. ...............................................

Labels: sudden nightmares

Labels: you bring out the best in me...

had the weirdest dream. i mean nitemare...
dun noe why. i pray hard it doesnt really happen.

oh yarr shit!
told him abt him.
turn back time? really... wat was i tinking when i told him d truth.
errr...
can i trust him? hope so...
remember we had a pinky-swear!
-first time telling him such bigthings!
coffeebean
the cocoa trees
candy empire
wat do they have in common? hehe.

Labels: i'm POPEYE the sailorman.

Unblocked! Well I’ve had enough! I’ve been keeping this in peace for so long but now it’s time let it out. Another post of me ranting out!! #$@!@$@!$. Ergh! Actually I wanted to keep this quiet because I thought I could settle it in silence. I know you hate me for so long but what the heck, I don’t care! I’ve asked for advises from different people. Everyone gave me different answers if they were in this situation. Well I just have to trust my instincts right? Trust it and do what’s best for me. I can’t hold on to this any longer. It hurts me inside and I don’t want it to continue any longer.

I want you to read this! And think hard!

I still remember a very particular time when you were pissed at me (I have no idea what I did wrong to you), you said something so hurtful about me so loudly that I really cannot bear to forgive you. Seriously! What have I done wrong to you until you could say something like that?! You thought all this while I didn’t know you always talked about me. Well think again! The damn walls have ears!!!! When I was told about what you said, I couldn’t react much because it was too late. I wasn’t in front of you when you said it. Of all the things, you just have to say something so deep right?

Somehow I really regretted calling you along in this job. On that particular day that I asked you along, people warned me. But I didn’t give a damn. I still called you. And you got the job because of me! Ungrateful biatch! Argh!!! I’m just venting my anger here because there is no one else who really knows what I mean.

You don’t care about anyone else but yourself. You know what, to tell the truth, you’re the type of person who saves her ass first so you won’t get into any trouble and be hated by the rest. Ehk!

Yeah I know, you don’t really like me from the beginning. But who gives a damn right?! And by the way, so what if you wear that thing, you don’t have the right attitude for that, maki sane-sini. I rather not wear that and disgrace myself if I were to have the same attitude as you!!! Screw you biatch!

PS/It’s my fucking problem to have repercussion on this matter. Cause I won’t lay back to what she has said. To guilty conscience people, if you're guilty. That's it. That proofs everything. I dun need outsiders to take effect on this.


You ain’t got rights to say anything because this is my blog, my territory, my problem…!


Let the anger conquers…. Blah blah blah. Fuck it lah! Don’t act as the good guy!
You want me to be the bad guy, then I’ll be that bad guy…! So screw you!!!

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im turning 19 at the end of the year. many call me zul. but actually, i'd rather be called leha. im pretty tall for my height which makes me and Yunho very compatible. a pity G-Dragon's short. but, height doesn't matter. preferable Wooyoung/Taecyeon. i can always have scandals right?

back to my night life. and im in my 2nd year of New Media in RP going 3rd soon. im hoping school would be fun. i have _ cats and i love them all. sometimes. i love baking and eating. running and jumping and the normal stuffs 18yr olds do. till then, have a pleasant flight at my blog.

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